Katie Thurston open and honest in an emotional video posted to her Instagram on Saturday, October 19.
The Bachelorette season 17 star, which also appeared in season 3 of FBoy Islandgot teary-eyed when discussing the imposter syndrome and the “suffocating” feeling of doubt he has experienced since getting reality TV fame.
“I’ll be very honest with you, there were a lot of times where I felt almost like I had imposter syndrome,” Thurston, 33, began – immediately becoming emotional. “I’ve been thinking about the last four years. life changes when you go through what I do, and it’s a lot, and it can be almost suffocating, and you start to kind of question like, I deserve what I have? But often, I’m like, I want to share about my life. And there are times when I think that, too, like, ‘Katie, nobody cares. Do you have to say.’ It was like my own inner battle to find my confidence again.”
Thurston – who won the hearts of Bachelor Nation after appearing on Matt Jamesdistrict season Scholar before fiance now ex fiance Blake Moynes in her future – then said that she sometimes considers leaving social media to avoid hate. However, she said she stayed because of the comments that inspired her – especially from others who spoke up after she shared her story of sexual assault earlier this year.
“The reason I am now emotional is because many of them have participated in DMs at various levels,” she said. “Tonight, there were a few DMs that I have that kind of reminds me, like, why am I here. Sometimes you get a message that says, ‘I’m reporting my attacker because you inspired me.’ And this isn’t me tooting my own horn – that guy is brave and deserves credit for doing it. It’s just little moments like that that remind me that I’m here, that I can make a positive difference. I can use my platform and audience well and I can influence others in a positive way.
The stand-up comedian, who is now engaged to a fellow funnyman Jeff Arcurifurther admitted that he faced “a lot of self-doubt” after joining Scholar franchise and surrounded by “the most beautiful and coolest women in the world.” But she knows that comparing herself to others isn’t healthy – she just wants to stay true to who she is and what she wants for her online community.
“I just looked at all the videos between 2020 and now, and it’s like, I’m blessed,” he said, admitting that he “overshares” sometimes. “I’m blessed and I’m so thankful for you and the opportunities that I’ve got. And I just don’t want to be a waste, you know? I want to continue. I just want to continue and do what I love and connect with people. I like to connect with people.”
She ended the post by saying that she will continue to “pursue (her) beliefs and share parts of (her) life” with her fans and followers.
“I want to be very honest with you,” he concluded.
Thurston is always open on social media, sharing sex positive posts as well as other positive messages. He recently received a lot of praise for coming forward in a rape case, which he lost in August.
“Today I was in San Diego to meet with the District Attorney assigned to my case. And officially, the chapter is closed for good,” Thurston wrote via Instagram Stories on Monday, August 12. the whole process is difficult and sane.”
Back in June, Thurston said he believed the justice system had failed him after he reported the assault.
“I did everything I had to do as a rape victim,” she wrote via Instagram on June 29. , surveillance footage, DNA, my body.’ The warning ‘wrongful verdicts are difficult in a criminal court’ echoed throughout the month, like an annoying parrot being forced. And as I’ve heard, I’m still not ready to stop. But, without being reminded, I had.
Thurston continued, “The justice system failed me and continues to fail thousands every day. But don’t give up.”
Many of his followers rallied behind him in the comments post about the imposter syndrome, saying they admired his “emotional intelligence and strength”.
“We care what you say Katie,” one commenter wrote, “You always keep it real.”